I can remember the first time I ever heard this song. It was on this girls Xanga - yea, I'm that old. I would go to her Xanga just to hear this song. Over and over and over. It still brings me the same calming effect it did back then.
So, what would you think of me now? I never said thank you for that. Except, I get the chance. On here at least .. because I know you'll read this sooner or later. :)
I thought all this time I was missing him, but I've realized I was only missing the part of me that he took with him. I'm slowly getting back to who I was before all of this catastrophe went down. & I am stronger, thank God. I know I can get through whatever life throws me..getting over you was the hardest thing I've had to do. It overwhelmed me for so much longer than I had expected.
but I'm happy to say .. I'm finally over you. In a basic sense. I'm over the love that I thought we had. I'm over the anger and the bitter resentment. I'm over the wishful thinking and the hopeful dreaming. Best of all - I'm over avoiding that part of me because I was so terrified of being reminded of you.
Truth is you are a part of who I am. When I go out discing, when I get excited over Miniature Tigers - mental note, they're at schubas soon get tickets - Ok, I'm back. Sorry. Listening to We Were Promised Jetpacks. My 'Does It Offend You Yeah' tee shirt. When I sing Jimmy Eat World as loud as I can in my car. That's all a part of me that I found when I was with you. and those are some of my favorite parts of me.
I wouldn't have found them if you never came into my life. What a depressing thought..
so, without further adieu ..
Thank you TSP. You've made me who I am today and I love who I've become.
